Till today, I've been living in denial!
It's my fault and I chose to drop into it!
I denied and gave excuses for this decision for quite some time!
and now, I finally have the guts to face it myself!
the reason people live in denial is that they are not ready to face the truth, but once they are ready for it, everything come clear, VERY CLEAR!
Sorry that I've lived in denial for the past 4-5 months!
maybe is just that I'm not ready to face the truth as the truth will be very hurtful!
hurts ain't something that everyone is looking forward!
but the illusion of joy, happiness and contentment.
okay, you might not know what or who am i referring but i believe part of this post you can relate to yourself on certain situation!
I hope so and I guessed!
when they say time is the medicine for a wound to heal, what it really meant is the time that is needed for us to face the truth and walked out of denial and the past!
I'm not the SENSE-MAKING person!
what i really post here on my blog is something that i really wanted to say out or more like voicing out!
I'm not someone who can tell everything FACE TO FACE to 1 particular person!
I either tell them on the phone or text them or the most with some other people ard us, a distance away though!
you might say that you know me, I've nothing to say about that
but all I can say is that I've no idea who or what kind of person am I!
and I don't even understand me myself!
a few days back, i was back to the bottom of the well! total darkness back then!
I lost my direction in life, more like lost direction in my future career!
我的未来毫秒芒! 我就想一个无头苍蝇在那里乱撞!
一直在那个迷宫里乱撞!
i was so afraid and scared then! can u believe this? i'm actually afraid of my future! something that is in the future and is like far far away!
i'm really afraid!
i've no idea whether am i going to pursue chemical engineering as my career?
or to go into the industry which i'm interested in?
i'm still searching!
i guess once this is solved, i will definitely see all things in a different view!
