Love this song!!!! Gosh! His voice is SO SO SO NICE!!!
I WANT THESE!!!
Monday, October 17
I want either 1 of them!!!! chio-ness!!!
anyone knows how much is it???
pls pls tell me!!! :D
Nikon 1 J1
Nikon 1 V1
I've been living in denial!
Sunday, October 9
Till today, I've been living in denial!
It's my fault and I chose to drop into it!
I denied and gave excuses for this decision for quite some time!
and now, I finally have the guts to face it myself!
the reason people live in denial is that they are not ready to face the truth, but once they are ready for it, everything come clear, VERY CLEAR!
Sorry that I've lived in denial for the past 4-5 months!
maybe is just that I'm not ready to face the truth as the truth will be very hurtful!
hurts ain't something that everyone is looking forward!
but the illusion of joy, happiness and contentment.
okay, you might not know what or who am i referring but i believe part of this post you can relate to yourself on certain situation!
I hope so and I guessed!
when they say time is the medicine for a wound to heal, what it really meant is the time that is needed for us to face the truth and walked out of denial and the past!
I'm not the SENSE-MAKING person!
what i really post here on my blog is something that i really wanted to say out or more like voicing out!
I'm not someone who can tell everything FACE TO FACE to 1 particular person!
I either tell them on the phone or text them or the most with some other people ard us, a distance away though!
you might say that you know me, I've nothing to say about that
but all I can say is that I've no idea who or what kind of person am I!
and I don't even understand me myself!
a few days back, i was back to the bottom of the well! total darkness back then!
I lost my direction in life, more like lost direction in my future career!
我的未来毫秒芒! 我就想一个无头苍蝇在那里乱撞!
一直在那个迷宫里乱撞!
i was so afraid and scared then! can u believe this? i'm actually afraid of my future! something that is in the future and is like far far away!
i'm really afraid!
i've no idea whether am i going to pursue chemical engineering as my career?
or to go into the industry which i'm interested in?
i'm still searching!
i guess once this is solved, i will definitely see all things in a different view!
My Inflection
Tuesday, October 4
a great diary to have! really!
is like having a personal diary! like in all teenager english television drama!
1st time writing today, and really hope that this will be my habit to continue writing on!
tho i'm not good in my english, but i believe that writing is the start for me to improve my english writing skills.
feelings poured in, will never ever leak out frm there!
unless someone read it! right?
the diary is an object! it wont talk!
anyway, start bible reading!
and it's kind of refreshing!!!
u know??? the feeling of 1 step closer to God!
and i've been making notes, the verses and ever write down my thoughts!
but i've lots of things that i'm not very sure!!! biblical i mean! no idea what it means!
need to ask someone abt the verses..... :D
CONFUSED!
Sunday, October 2
Yesterday, during service, God told me these: "You're ready to move on now! something greater is ahead!"
these're the exact words said and told!
was confused abt it! have no idea in wat area am i suppose to move on.
but after a night of meditating and thinking and praying. i've got the answer for it!
and i'm stuck in that place for super long time
i believe that it's time for me to move on. but it's going to take some time and i'll end up being hurt!
but if this is the only way out, i guess time is the cure to this!
every little acts lead me to a little hope. what can i do? i was the one who didnt guard myself properly and dropped into the hole. 一个无底洞!
is like, u have no idea when is this going to stop and have no end to that hole.
and it's hard to get out of it too!!!
i really hate to come to think that humans are created this way. hate to say that i dislike me myself bringing and letting emotions take control of me and everything!
i guess it's time for me to grow and get out of it! this is all a test for me!
if what i desire to have is really what God want me to have, i believe that it will happen at the end of the year.
keep reminding myself of the promise i made to God and the vow i take!
what i want to do now is to fulfill my vision!
i'm half way there! and i'm super excited for it! believe at the end of this route to fulfilling my vision, i'll definitely learn and earn something frm this process!
is not abt the result but the journey!
i can't rmb when is the last time when i really got excited for something!
i guess maybe this is what i want ba! tat why? hmmm... :D
tho a wound is there, but i believe with what i'm learning, i'm able to cover it!
using enough coverage to cover it!
pray hard that i'm able to get out this for good and will never drop in it again!
last of all, i've got to say that your eyes are the ones which caught my attention first! :D
