Feeling down, for something that happened on sat.
affected me greatly! i can't sleep on sat due to that.
i realize that i've always been staying in my fairytale!
ok, i believe in fairytale. the whole LIVING HAPPILY EVER AFTER!
the whole perfect princess life and a prince riding a white horse to fetch the princess! on a green patch of field
and having to live in a castle, surrounded with guards.
but just on sat, those things you said, really brought me down
i tot i had hopes for this!
i carried high hopes. and you brought me down all over again! back to square 1 but with heavy heart!
seriously, at times i wished my life will be different!
Being a christian, i know i shldn't be like that. someone with low hopes.
BUT GUESS WHAT! I ADMIT! I HAVE LOW CONFIDENCE LEVEL WHEN IT COMES TO THIS!
i might be like that on the outside! but tat isn't the real me!
i need to step out of the comfort zone.
it's been since a long time since i cried for the reason of me being sad.
other than that, i only cried in church.
i am just being afraid!!!
i just wished terin neo and yanran is beside me right now!!!
tears do roll down my cheeks once i tot abt the incident!!!
I SO WANT TO HAVE A SLUMBER PARTY!!!!
times, i asked God, why am i created like that?
but i guess He has his reason, and i have admit to His creation!
God is my creation, even if i blame Him for this, He will always my great DAD!
BACK TO THE POINT!
IN THIS REALISTIC WORLD!
FAIRYTALE WILL ALWAYS STAY AS IT IS!
THERE WON'T BE A FAIRYTALE OUTCOME IN THIS REALISTIC WORLD!!!
my dad told me once in chinese though.
"if you choose ppl, so will they choose, and u might not be the choice that they choose! so welcome to the realistic world!"
i agree to what he say on sat!
When you choose, so will others be choosing!!!!
