God is my provider

Time flies, i am turning 19 in 1 month and 2 days.
still rmb the day i came church, it was like 3 years and 6 months ago.\

God has been my shepherd, my savior for these years.
I might have back-slighted for abt 8 months, i guess. due to parental objection and O level period.
But i still rmb tat i still pray to God. little and simple, and filled prayer.
God didn't fail to fulfill them. He is still there for me even when i back-slighted.

If you are back with God, and once had go away frm God,
Don't be ashame abt it. is because of the time when you are away from God, u can see the difference between life with and without God!
With God, your everyday life is guided by Him! He is a shepherd after all, and we are the lost sheeps!
Without God, you feel lost. you realize that something is missing inside you!

Is because i realize that missing thing inside of me, i know that it is God's guiding is missing in me!
That's why i came back to God myself.
Some back-slights, they are afraid of coming back themselves, so they wait for someone to invite them
For me, i know that i really need God alot alot!!!
i out down all pride, i contacted my cg member after 8 months w/o contact.
came back to God as a sinner, and once again, He is my saviour!

He will always be a saviour for everyone, but depends whether you want Him to be one for you!

He won't force the door open to let Himself in.
He wait for you to open the door and welcome in.
By then, you will know the greatness of God!!

i had a friend, his name is yeewee. ok someone i had a crush for 3 years, but now we are friends.
anyway, he was a buddist as his mum is. and he love his mum so much that he say that he will never be a christian.
did chat with him once in a while for 4 years.
2 years back, i went over to his facebook, and to my surprise, he is now a christian!
wow! thru this, there something inside me telling me that everyone has their own special time with God!
their own timing for themselves to open that door!

Is like no matter how anti-christ a person is, or stubborn, God is still the God of everyone's life!
author for everyone's life.
If u reject Him now, in future u can't predict whether are u gonna reject Him!
you will be touched by the miracles He is doing in all His children's lifes.

He will never ever forsake you in your weakness!!!
He will give you the strength and courage to move on!

He is like a single father, being both the father and mother!
He guides, loves, a friend, protector, a teacher, a shield, a sword!
Why do i say that God is a shield?
because He is always protecting us from harm when we are not ready, therefore a shield is more than a protector!
Why do i say that God is a sword?
because He is always there fighting with us. He sent His only son, Jesus, 2000 years ago to die on the cross for us. And Whatever we are going thru now, God has sent Jesus to go before us, and now Jesus is like fighting the 2nd time with you whatever you are facing!
Therefore He is like a sword! a sword, and a shield is what a knight need!
We are the knights! fighting for? fighting for God's kingdom! :D

The walk with God is not easy, therefore we cannot walk with our own strength!
Ask God for strength! We walk by faith, and not by sight!!!
Faith is the substance for things hope for, the evidence of things not seen!

Totally in love with this verse, Psalm 34:4
"I sought the Lord, and He answered me; He delivered me from all my fears."

Amen!
Reading bible keeps my spiritual man alive!
STILL ALIVE AND KICKING!!! :D

i can say that overall, i had a great day in school, except for my super sexy voice that is giving me real deal for the day!

had environment engineering tutorial, had this class discussion on this case which is actually happened overseas.

seriously, something not according to the law will actually cause yourself to be admitted into jail!

heat transfer practical was kind of fun.

tks God Ms Phua Siew Teng did not give my grp a hard time.

and Tks God my post-exp was taken by Miss Oi!

quite happy that among my grp mates, my result is actually quite good! :D

had kong ling teck process instrumentation.

i guess that the module is a waste of time after all i learned quite alot of stuff at CPTC. i mean attachment!

Math! nicely done!

didnt do much today.

lecturer wanted us to do tutorial 1 and 2, and those done are able to go home early by 30mins.

i have done all and answers correct!

so i have nothing to do.

but i am quite happy mengjie is in the same class as me, so i wont feel so bored!

taught mengjie integration and differentiation from scratch!

feel good when he got hold of it!

wondering, am i called for teaching?

just love the feeling of teaching ppl something, and i feel so satisfied and happy when they got hold of it.

or is it just that i get contented easily??

that i do not have high expectation?

maybe this is me! being easily contented, so i can live life happily!?!?!?!? hahas yeash i guess so

anw, the goal for this sem!

Heat transfer - at least a B-

Process intrumentation - at least a B-

Engineering mathematic IIA - at least a B-

Environmental engineering - at least a B-

4 core modules! maybe this is the starting expectation of a beginning semester!

but i really want to buck myself up!

JIAYOU!!! :D

OOOOOOO

I PAINTED MY NAILS WITH MY NEW BABY BLUE NAIL POLISH!

for those who dunoe, i LOVE BLUE LIKE CRAZY!

electric blue, baby blue.

most of the time bright blue.

those dull blue, nah! sorry...

isn't the color beautiful?

hahas anw, tata...

i am not feeling very well...

feel as if i am going to get sick any time....

once again, my faith for God is refreshed!
watched a movie on exorcism. a true story abt this Father (priest), frm his un-believing to his believing

though the movie is scary, but what reminded me is His love for Us!
and my love for Him!

times passes fast. at times i thought that i no longer love God, from the bottom of my heart.
wat i thought my love for Him was just a light love.

but today, i can feel that my love for God is more than me loving any guy i ever love or like
more than my parents!

God is so great! w/o words can describe the geatness of Him!

If the devil say that God is not with you and God is fake.
Just rmb that God is there for you! He is always there for you!
God the creator of all things! and author!!
God is walking with you and trusting in your faith that we have for Him!
At times, we might lost faith, always rmb that He is always faithful in you!
At times, when things doesn't make sense to you, is alright!
As faith is believing w/o any evidence.
Hebrews 11:1
1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

At times you might be fearful, like me, i will be afraid at times!
But believe in this! God will never give you a fearful heart

Believing God! having faith in Him in all things!
trials and tribulations are there not just to test you but there to help you to grow!!!

Amen! In Jesus Name I pray, Amen!!!

Friday
i realized that my previous post quite little abt what i did on friday.
anyway, friday was good friday, had to go for service!
as usual! i took a cab again! GOSH! but this time round was because i had to help my mum in her hse hold chores!
easter drama was great! funny!
after service! went over to bugis for dinner!
had a great long chat with sharon!
hahas she was actually counted as my senior. she graduated frm SP but from bioengineering(i think)

Saturday
this time round, i took a bus down to cityhall to meet-up with odelya and melvin for early lunch!
we ate Billy Bombers! and the portion is super mega big!!!
me and odelya ordered fish and fries, and melvin ordered spaghetti .
the portion is really mega big! even melvin can't finish up his food!

didnt took picture of our food, but look at my ice-lemon tea!

super larger!

before i drink: at the brim

End of the day: not even half emptied!!!

imagine!!!! SUPER DUPER BIG!!!

service is great again!

did counseling, and i met with this lady, who love God so much, and she really teared alot!!

she got breast cancer 2nd stage, and she is still loving God!

great faith! but i heard frm her that she gave up the therapy

she was afraid of the pain! i guess her family members had to really encourage her

since it is still in the early stage!

dinner i ate unagi ramen! NICE!

I took a pic of the ramen, but i forgot abt the unagi!

hahas i know, it looks like maggi mee.

and the soup of the ramen is actually like diluted soya sauce

the ramen wasn't that nice, but the UNAGI!!!!

HEAVEN ON EARTH!!! :D

nice! :P

after dinner went over to Pool fushion II to play pool.

ok, i really told the truth, i haven't touch pool for 1 year!

not even stepping into the pool area of touch the cue!

and my skills really getting worse!!!

got to brush up my skills!!!!

after pool, went over to haji lane for drinking ans shisha

with wayne, jon, mike, dexter, eileen and melvin!

played the number game 0,5,10,15,20 with eileen!

i am really very weak in this game! totally!

so the loser drink. so i drink quite alot!

and tks to wayne! he treat me and eileen to another jar of beer!!!

TKS ALOT WAYNE!

when we finished the beer, we turn to ask melvin to play tgt with us.

max 30, min 0. 3 ppl play

the person ho guessed the number, and the left person will sing a 10 word song!

and i am the one singing and eileen.

melvin is like so good! he didnt sing much!

THANKS ONCE AGAIN TO WAYNE FOR THE FREE JAR OF BEER

& THE RIDE HOME!!!

MILLION OF TKS!! :D

easter day service!
nice service! and good job to all the actors and actresses!!! :D
anw, after today's word, 1 question keep popping up into my mind.
after nearly 3 months in the new cg, and wad had happened.
now den the question pop up!

i really feel that God is really asking me this question, and i bet He is waiting for my reply before He act out.
the BIG question are "Are you ready for it? & which choice would be choosing?"
You might be wondering, ready for what? and what are the choices related to?
Frankly speaking, it is something that i need to find out too!

Been being stagnant for quite sometimes, after reading the book by Joyce Meyer.
One told me, when you are stagnant, it means that something is not done. it can be whether have u done it or have you done it right?

I guess the reason for me to be stagnant is that i have not finished what i am suppose to do.
And God really reveal to me that, i am correct.
There are things that i need to do and settle.
Be it personal or in study or in spiritual life.
Can be related to my family/friends.
so i will need to find that nut to that screw!

and another friend of mine, told me that God do thing miraculously.
he might plant something into your life when He knows that you are not ready for it!
but the reason for Him to plant it into your life when u are not ready is to get u to ready
chim? yeah, at first i am quite blur abt it. but after reading it slowly, i get it! :D
so when God ask me, "Am i ready"
My answer will forever be NO!
tks to the NO, He will plant the not ready things for me!
So if ur ready, God plant those things into ur life, and it defeats the purpose for u to grow!!

hahas tats all for tday. really very tired now!!
NIGHTS! AND SWEET DREAMS FOR ME!
*FOR THOSE WHO KNOWS ME, YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN!!*

Started Sch successfully!
Didn't missed any lesson or skipped any lessons or late!
Tks to engineering math, found my joy in math back again.
I started doing tutorial before the lecture actually ask us to do

Even though classes I am attending now are not with my own class
And I am with strangers by right juniors
But tks to the strangers and me having no one to talk to, I manage to focus myself during lecture
Maybe this is den the right way for me to study!!!
I got to study hard!!! Graduate with a diploma tho result isn't tat good
But to graduate with a cert tat can earn nearly $2k per month

Anw got to sleep!!! Zzzzzzzzzz nights ;)

MONDAY, 17 MARCH 2011
it's the very first day of school. and i guess it was a great day in school.
had environmental engineering tutorial, Process instrumentation tutorial, Heat transfer & Equipment practical briefing and Mathematical engineering IIA tutorial
and is from 8am to 5pm. the whole day. though there isn't anything important for the 1st day of school, but it is a very tiring day.

Went down to my tuition centre to meet james to discuss my work. and i will be taking Creative writing to Pri 1 and Pri 3. from 10am to 1pm.
Tks God church is 5pm! so i won't be in a hurry.

I am seriously thinking abt taking up the mindmax training again. but i realize that my brain function abit slow.
Just that i am afraid to take mindmax again. as i bet that once i take that up, i will be super busy busy busy!!!
With FYP coming up in the following semester. wondering how am i suppose to cope with everything.

I know being a christian, i must expect a road of obstacles and trials. but at times, i really wish that my road will be very smooth!

anw, i got my heels that i bought online.

front view

side view.

cute right???

hehe, i also bought a boots, but they told me the color that i wanted is out of stock

so i decided to get another color. really wish they have that color!!!

and i realize the stock and the services where i got my shoes are good.

even though the price is abit pricey, same as the price now in the shopping malls

but i dun mind. the shoes there are like super nice!!!

satisfied.

if u want to get shoes, go to this website and get shoes : http://theshoesinc.com/index.php

they also has a website for clothes, http://wardrobe54.com/

though i haven't tried it yet, but i guess is the same!!

Saturday

as per normal. go church, after tat fellowship and home.

but tis time round, we went over to players!

seriously, tat place really changed alot! the previous bar uncle not there le..

and got to know a new friend, eileen! she is a total pro in hokkien song!!! *SALUTE*

anw, i now den know tat ode will get super high when she eat mash-mallow!!!!

HEHE nxt time gonna spam her with mash-mallow. so she can get high everyday!

SO ODELYA! LOOK OUT FOR A MOUNTAIN OF MASH-MALLOW WAITING FOR U!

Sunday

had to go down to changi airport terminal 1 to fetch 大小姐 MOU YAN RAN!

me, shiyi, shiqi, zhongping, hope and martin went down to fetch her!

super dua pai sia. but telling the truth! tks God she is back! miss her hell lot!!!

breakfast at terminal 2 mac, den down to yanran's hse! slack and home

anw, i love today!!! had family dinner but tis time w/o my elder sis... at admiratly park sakura

best part, my mum super cute!!!

imagine her flapping her hands and say :“我要飞!" once she said tat she say:"我要起飞了!"

once she say tat, she start running.

i was taking video of her, and she ran forward the camera.

cute max!!!

ok will find a time to upload!

anw, photos and video will upload soon...

monday start sch le. gonna rest early now

再见咯!!! :D

MOOD: TIRED

Tiredness can kill

Take a break!

2nd last day of attachment!

last day will be having end-sem test. den graduate frm CPTC!

What we are is God's gift to us.

What we become is our gift to God!

totally agree to this!

saying this prayer on the day tat i surrender myself to God!

and will always be repeated the last 2nd sentence: "I commit myself to you and ask toy to send the Holy Spirit into mylife, to fill me and take control, and to help me become the kind of person you want me to be."

I got Love God and Love People!

What Is Your Affinity?

Earth

You are incredibly loyal and trustworthy, and your friends can always count on you. Like Stevie Rae, you are cautious and slow to change.

Fledglings with an affinity for earth are great at offering help and will be there when friends need a shoulder to cry on. They may not always be imaginative, but will have no trouble finishing projects that they start.

Fun quizzes, surveys & blog quizzes by

today's an off day! and i am having fever!

what can i do today? SLEEP!!!

Sunday 12 hrs day shift!

shift E grp 3(SP10)

we lighted the furnace in 1 time! NICE OR WHAT??

was quite satisfied of it and really proud of my grp!

the previous time, shift E grp 1 and 2, which are the SP 2 members, they lighted for 3 times, and the 4th times, den they lighted the furnace!

COOL RIGHT?

really! i am really grateful that my grp got a very good instructor, after what i heard frm my friend

Being grateful, It reminded me that one of my leaders told me that we got to be grateful for everything and everyone!

Because, they are there for a reason and is arranged by God Himself!

tracking back in time for today!
Having leave today, tks to yesterday's 12 hrs shift work on JURONG ISLAND!
though my grp work is slacking, but i'm still feeling very shag.

Head over to citylink starbucks at abt 2.30pm to study for my attachment end-sem test, the following fri.
Is a very good place to study!!!
Mange to arrange all my notes.
Managed to cover hot oil system, steam system, cooling water, furnace system, and abit of heat exchangers

And Odelya joined me too, hmm at ard 3.30pm ba!
studied till ard 5.30pm ba. not very sure abt the timing though!!!

headed down to bugis to meet bernard, melvin, mike and calvin.
had steamboat for dinner! :D
nice!!! quite satisfied with the food!
it will always be the bessssst steamboat!
service is good, food is good!!! :D

anw photos to upload. taken with SP10!
SP10 rocks! :D

tats my foot!!

guru and me

me and BK (Burger king? / Brendan koh?)

SP10

~END~

MONDAY: from 8am to 5pm
TUESDAY: from 10am to 5pm
WEDNESDAY: from 8am to 11am
THURSDAY: from 9am to 5pm
FRIDAY: from 9am to 11am

i dun really have much time to work...
only monday, tuesday and thursday...

wednesday reserve for bible study!
friday is reserve for cell grp meeting!

Today is the last day of SP10!

why must SP10 split??? sian!!!

anw, i am always a sotong head!

i fell today at the stairs there outside at the plant area.

and i got this wound on my leg...

it still hurts! and i literally want to cry while i clean my wound!

anw, after the whole training, 11 of us went all the way to causeway point to have out early supper!

had long john silver!

after tat went to sit at this area and play true or dare!

nice game to build relationship with friends!

SP10 is always so on!

and i really wish that SP10 can be my class!!!!

more photos will be up once my friends tag me in facebook! cos all photos are in my friend's camera!! :D

tata... very tired! tml hve to wake up early!!! sian!!!

Feeling down, for something that happened on sat.
affected me greatly! i can't sleep on sat due to that.
i realize that i've always been staying in my fairytale!
ok, i believe in fairytale. the whole LIVING HAPPILY EVER AFTER!
the whole perfect princess life and a prince riding a white horse to fetch the princess! on a green patch of field
and having to live in a castle, surrounded with guards.

but just on sat, those things you said, really brought me down
i tot i had hopes for this!
i carried high hopes. and you brought me down all over again! back to square 1 but with heavy heart!
seriously, at times i wished my life will be different!

Being a christian, i know i shldn't be like that. someone with low hopes.
BUT GUESS WHAT! I ADMIT! I HAVE LOW CONFIDENCE LEVEL WHEN IT COMES TO THIS!
i might be like that on the outside! but tat isn't the real me!
i need to step out of the comfort zone.

it's been since a long time since i cried for the reason of me being sad.
other than that, i only cried in church.
i am just being afraid!!!

i just wished terin neo and yanran is beside me right now!!!
tears do roll down my cheeks once i tot abt the incident!!!

I SO WANT TO HAVE A SLUMBER PARTY!!!!

times, i asked God, why am i created like that?
but i guess He has his reason, and i have admit to His creation!
God is my creation, even if i blame Him for this, He will always my great DAD!

BACK TO THE POINT!
IN THIS REALISTIC WORLD!
FAIRYTALE WILL ALWAYS STAY AS IT IS!
THERE WON'T BE A FAIRYTALE OUTCOME IN THIS REALISTIC WORLD!!!

my dad told me once in chinese though.
"if you choose ppl, so will they choose, and u might not be the choice that they choose! so welcome to the realistic world!"

i agree to what he say on sat!
When you choose, so will others be choosing!!!!

one thing i forgot to post!

on facebook, my friend tag me in a photo which i took with this guy, but his back view last week

this week, i took alot of courage to go forward and take pic with this guy! and this is it!

hahas sorry for my hair!!! but he is really cute!!! :D

hahas my first time ever doing this type of things! and i bet this is the last ever!!!

you will nv have a life without pulsation! WOW!!!
hahas nv thought that i will ever have such a nice title for a post! LOL
anyway, ppl ard me have bad things happening ard them. either their mum or dad pass away.
and i really feel bad and being guilty that i can do nothing abt it.
i am someone that is not good in comforting ppl. i can't talk!
everytime when i speaks, wrong things came out. and i really feel bad being like tat.
anyway, i can't anything for them, but just t be their side.

nxt week will be the 5th week for attachment! which means, nxt week is my shift work!
and on the other hand, i will soo be having my end sem paper!
o ya. i am quite worried abt my mid-term paper. i got a feeling i won't score very well.

having attachment for the whole week last week, is very tiring!
physically tired! but my friends are the one who makes me want to pull thru this!
Really tks God good friends ard me! They are the reasons for who i am now.
who i am now, may not be someone tat is good. but God will still be teaching me and mold me into someone He wanted me to be!
believing in Him is what a believer shld be doing! trusting Him always!

When things are hard, i can't do anything but to pray and trust in Him!
He is so gg to do miracles in my life like what He had done for me the past 4 years!
being in church and staying on for me is not very easy for me! so is everyone!
You must have the desire to stay on with God! though the road is tough, but He will always bless us and strengthen us!
ppl might judge you and me, but always believe in Him!
In Matthew 7:1-2
1 Judge not, that you be not judged. 2 For with what judgment you judge, you shall be judged: and with what measure you met, it shall be measured to you again.

i am now starting get a habit in reading the bible more! i am relying on the Word to guide me!
The Word is like a much more better law! something like the 10 commandments!

some picture to update during my attachment!!

my bimbo buddy... hope he is ok now...

my friends for my attachment. this is only part of it!! :D

meison, me, waishuan, stanley, rusdy, brendan.

guru, mr raj, rusday, me, brendan, bryan, lizhi, leonard, xian yi

(left to right)