God is my provider

Since God is the author and finisher of our life.

And He is the one who writes our life.

It means, there is a book of US!

And the book will be place on the shelf of HEAVEN!

and the shelf will the very big.

I bet He has arranged them in 2s.

A male and a female.

For them to be married

I am unsure about it, but since God writes our life,

He must has included that too.

Wow, at times, i am quite amazed by God.

By His work for life.

He created us and He enjoyed His work

He makes things perfect, by creating us in His image.

He wanted us to be perfect, but we will nv be perfect.

But He is always there forgiving us when we sin.

He is a great God.

A great DAD!!

A great friend!

A friend that truly accept who you are

Forgive you no matter what

Giving anything we asked for.

He really dote us.

Us being unfaithful, He is always faithful in us.

Who on earth will have this kind of character and tolerance level???

None on earth is like that accept for God and Jesus!

At times, i'm wondering, will God get angry?

Will God cry??

Will God be worried for us?

He do really cry for us, and get angry of us.

But He just love us too much, so He didn't punish us.

You know how i know???

In the bible, it's said that we are created in God's image!

So if we cry and get angry, so will God!

GOD DO WONDERS IN MY LIFE.

AND I BELIEVE HE ALSO IS DOING WONDERS IN YOUR LIFE!! :D

I know u don't belong to me. so i will have to give up on you and cont' with my life.
Easily said, hard to be done.
In my heart, i really want you to be by my side.
But since you don't belong to me, i have to give up and cont' with my life.
I don't want to want to revolve around you.

~tata~

Sweets are the one that make my day.

I always had sugar rush!

these 2 pics are the ones that i searched "sweets", and i choose these 2

cute sin't it???

i looks like some bubble gum. but i not sure what it is.

hahas sticky!! :D

I'll tell you abit of my life before me coming back to Jesus 4 years back.
I first know Jesus and God was when i was age of 4, 5, 6, 7 and 8
I was enrolled into a Christian base Kindergarten.
It is called CALVARY PANDAN KINDERGARTEN
It is under a presbyterian church, called Calvary Pandan Bible
But actually, i came from a buddist family. All my siblings including me studied there.
I believe everything my teacher taught me, I believe there is a God, a daddy God.
Besides that, i attended the sat church there too.
Is like children church. All i go there is to play, & i rmb clearly, my teacher ask me to rmb this verse in the bible!
& the verse is John 3:16.
at the age of 5, i knew this verse! but then, i have no idea what it means.
All i know is that, if i rmb this verse, i can get sweets!

I attended that church till i was in pri 2. Then, i stopped going.
From then on, i had tuition. Tuition took over my fellowship with God.
And then, i forgot abt God totally! i left God for tuition, to get good grades in sch.

Tks God, 4 years ago,7 October 2007. i went to CHC, expo hall 8.i went bible study with my friends.
I didn't give my heart on that day, but i felt the presence of God so strong.
Is like something pressing against me. And i can rmb that feeling so clearly.
on 10 October 2007, i went to a cg meeting with my friends. at riverwalk.
I gave my heart to Jesus then. and is the first time ever i saw a lay hand.
I was quite shock to see it though.
From then, i attended my bible study faithful, and i will ask for bible study w/o anyone ask.
Cindy leong, shimin and casandra and the 3 teachers who taught me bible study.
I arranged bible study with them. then i always told lies to my mum to go for church.
Cause, i know that my mum will strongly object me from going church.
and for cg meeting, i rmb gg to elijah's hse for it on sat, before the service start.

in 2007, i was sec 3, so my mum hired a tuition teacher for. i had to arranged it to be on sunday morning not on saturday, so i can go to church.
so every sat, after any sch morning remedial lessons, i will go home and rest and change to get ready for church all the way at expo :D
Wit great faith, i will travel down to anywhere to have a time to worship God and listen to the preaching.

and me gg to shaun's hse for prayer meeting, which is in tampiness. i will travel ALONE frm bukit panjang by train.

i was so young, and always, i run out of money. Casandra will give me money for me to top-up my e-zink link card. Cindy will sometimes treat me to dinner. so will shimin.

I bet no one knows that i actually prayed for myself to speak in tougues. I wanted so much, and i got what i asked and prayed for. God saw my heart. and everytime during service, i will nv fail to cry.

It was then in 2008, ard February and march. I stopped going to church.
My mum started to give me stress on my studies. and wanting me to get good grades. and she kind of band me frm gg out on sat. so i had to leave church due to parental objection.
for the first 2 months, i can have a strong feeling of gg to church, as if someone is praying for me.
During the period of my studying for my O level, and during the period of O level.
i had a very tough time. emotionally and physically.
I kind of fall into depression. I was too stressed up and was too tired to study.
Everyday night, i prayed a prayer to God, saying that i need more strength from Him, and if He can bless me with more Strenght to pull thru O level period, i will definitely go back to church for Him.
Is like an exchange of promises.
But after O level, i didn't went back straight away. I got myself a job. and i rmb clearly i started on1st december 2008 for my 1st job as a sale assistant.
But i rmb i went back to church during the ASIA CONFERENCE 2008
Tks God i went back! and i went to ZP's cg, which is my very first cg, E457.

E457 cont for a few months, and have to combine with W495.
E457 then became a past. W495 not long in another few months, multiplied again. W516 is form.
i stayed in W495. in abt 1 year or so, W495 had to be disband due to some reason.
I had to went back to pearly, W516.
O ya, did i say tat, in the past, i will be always hiding behind my friends who brought me to church?
but after i came back, i had to face it!
and wen i came of W495, i learned alot of things and i changed. I learn to step our of the shadows of my friends. becoming who i am.
O ya, back to the point. i returned to pearly, as a W516-ian.
Soon later, jessica joined, and W532 is multiplied out.
soon later jackson joined W532 and soon later W548 is formed.
in abt 4-5 months, W548 have to combined with W541. due to some reasons that is preferred not to say.
and now, i am now in W541.

u see, i was frm
E457 to W495 to W516 to W532 to W548 to W541.
I keep changing cg. and i long to stayed in a cg for more than 3 years, but the most is 1 year plus.
hopefully i can just stayed in W541 long.....

tats all for now. i will tell u more tml morning, if there is time for me!! :D
tata
NIGHTS!! :D

blusher palette

brushes

combine palette

concealer palette

contour palette

eyeshadow palette

lip palette

aren't they incredible???
the total cost is abt $187 !!!
cheap right??? WOW!!!
save money!! save money!! just want my attachment to end, and i can start work and den i can earn money!!!
i dun feel like taking allowance frm my dad, but my mum says tat not so soon la.
cos i'm still studying, cannot dun take allowance
even if i dun take the money, my dad will still give me money. he will just leave it on my table, or even inside of my pink pig piggy bank
no choice, i am now saving them up!!!

i admit i have low self-esteem !!!
so what! it doesn't stop me by being who i am!
i can be daring at some areas, but not all.

who don't?
there is always an area for everyone tat they have low esteem in.

got test tml, and i am being so restless!!! WT!!!!

stupid rusdy, say tat i'm a bimbo....
affected by it!!!
DANG!!!
bimbo=stupid!
and i'm like so clumsy!!!

Tks Bernard for the meal! i keep asking him how much is it, and he insist of not saying... :(

My steam crab egg

my green tea cold noodle and salmon

Odelya's portion, the mini rice

Bernard's half done fish and egg

Bernard's udon

Bernard's prawn and yucky capsican

i saw this caucasian guy, and he is super cute... even zhongping says so!! :D

a pic of his back view with me !! :P

tks to odelya who takes tis pic with me!! :D

tks!!

~end~

readthe book of Joyce Meyer!!!

something i shared on W541 wall....i decided to copy and paste what i shared there.
dun wanna spoil too much, so if u want to know more, u can get the book frm me!! :D

many ppl didnt enjoy the journey tat they are in. and Joyce meyer reminded me of the word "Joy". It is also one of the fruits of the spirit. Joy is the ability to enjoy, no matter whether what happen, bad times or good times. different circumstances are there for a reason. Since it is there for a reason, why not enjoy the journey? Joyce meyer also pointed out the thieves of joy! they are regrets and
dread. Regrets of the past and dread of the future.

we often think things to be very complicated. so when we think complicated, then everything else in our life will seem that way to us. so we got to simplify our life. starting with our prayer, by being sensitive to the Holy spirit, as He will guide u to pray the right way and saying the right words, we need not say BIG words, as God will not get impressed by how good our English is, but He looks at our heart and our faith to Him. And Joyce meyer say tat we got to find back out childlikeness, like our faith! because a child believe whatever they are told, as they are trusting. as it is their nature to trust, unless they experience somethings that taught them otherwise.
our childlikeness are not lost, but is just hiding inside of us. It's just being protected inside of us. Christianity is not a religion but a relationship! DO NOT COMPLICATE URSELF WITH RELIGION AND RELATIONSHIP!

tats all i learnt, there are more. and i'm still reading the book!!! it taught me to learn to enjoy what i'm undergoing and looking it in another way! :D

~END~

i'm addicted to Joyce Meyer's sermons!

i downloaded everything related to her sermons, and i watched them on the bus frm jurong east to jurong island!!

watched Experiencing partnership today.
not much for it. but i'm quite touched by how they gg out there to touch ppl's life.
by giving out food for students. the after sch dinner. for kids tat does not get food for dinner at home, due to some reasons.
and them giving out new clothes to ppl who have no homes, letting them get their bathe for free
and guess what, there is an uncle, who is an ex-drug dealer, he is now a christian.
he drove a yellow sch bus, he drive and pick up all the homeless ppl to church.
to get their breakfast, clothes, bathe.
and once they are dresses up and clean, they are ready to go to church.
is like wanting them to dress their very best for the Father!

and 1 kid, his dad was in the prison, and he was send to a foster home.
his mum was stressed up, and tks to the church and the volunteer, she got back her children.
after these thing happens to him, he went to church.
the children pastor ask the children, if they are given some money, which they did.
and there are 3 cups. they are the give, the buy and the save.
the pastor asked the kids, where will u put ur money in?
tat 1 particular kid, he didnt meant to attract any attention. he raised his hands and ask, " can i give all ?"

wow... it is this attitude tat we need to learn!
not afraid of giving!!!
"the give" cup, is using the money to give/ meeting ppl needs!
"the buy" cup, is like planting churches, planting shelter!
"the save" cup, is to save up the money to himself/herself and not putting into either cup.

WOW!
impress by tat kid. he gave all the money. to the give and buy cup. not a single cent to himself!

Joyce Meyer says tat he knows hoe the kids under the foster home is living like, tats why he has the heart to give. as he understands how the kids feels, what they need.
due to such a small deed the kid did. the church decided to renovate/ give the kid's family a home.
as their home was all torn and tattered! and not in a good condition for someone to live in!
Joyce Meyer's church really went out to help them. and really gave them a new home!

WOW i am really admire Jocye Meyer's church, and really learnt something frm the kid for Joyce Meyer's church.
Really teach me to give more than what i shld.
Giving a little on earth, nobody might know, but God is looking at it.
though the value is small, as long as it is everything u have, God will bless u back many many times more!!

WOW!!! impact by Joyce Meyer!

repect her max!!!!

love her books too!

love the way she break things down, for me to learn and go another level!

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!

anyway these are some of the pictures i took during my attachment!

Waishuan

cecilia, me and dawen

me and Mr handsome bruce lee (Rusdy)

Me and Mr Vinod !

lizgi, me, brenden, vinod, Mr quek and rusdy

chin leong, vinod, brenden, lizhi and rusdy

hahas these are the pictures i had taken.

more coming up, but i need to take pics with them :D

AND SERIOUSLY! I KEEP DROPPING THINGS!!!!

Sorry didn't manage to post anything yesterday.

receive a bad news, and i really didn't see that coming.

just hope tat my friend is ok. thou is hard, but i really pray tat she can cry her heart out, and not live any regrets!

did a little prayer for her yesterday. just wanting God to give her all the strength she need.

at tis moment, nobody would want to have a solution, everyone would like to have a listening ear!

being fast to listen, and slow to speak.

really praying that she wouldn't live with regrets.

because regret will steal her joy.

anyway, i will definitely keep her in prayer

anyway yesterday like usual, my attachment, but is a very tiring day.

really dunoe why is it a tiring day, when all we did yesterday was lecture, and pump tour and the "what" lab

forgotten what tat lab is called tho....

ok. i need to change a few things abt myself.

i need to think twice before i speak. i need to sensitive!!!

hey everyone! i'm sorry if i haven't being sensitive enough. and i might hurt u or offend u.

I AM SORRY!

everyone has their flaws. no one is perfect. except for Jesus though.

But yeah. no one is perfect.

only ppl who is leaning on the perfect person! :D

got to go... tata ~~~~

i'm back! trying to keep my blog alive.
anyway, I LOVE PICKLES!
had bread with ham with cucumbers and tomato for breakfast!
i was wondering, why my mum didn't buy pickles for it?
ok for those who dunoe, I LOVE PICKLES ALOT!
love the sour taste. hahas yeap, i love eating sour things. lemon, lime, pickles, sour sweet, i drink apple vinegar
hahas yeah and tks to my taste bud, there goes my gastric.
hehe.
yeah u shld be guessing, why am i drinking apple vinegar?
hahas guess what 1) vinegar is good for a lady's skin and complexion, and 2) apple vinegar helps me to wash my stomach, wash off all the fats. hahas :P

anyway but it is nice! diff way of drinking it.
apple vinegar with honey, apple vinegar with water mixed. apple vinegar itself!
muahahas... :D

anyway the big day is here!
gotten back my results!
LC504AFILM APPRECIATION B+

CP5007FLUID MECHANICS A C

C CP5042BIOANALYTICS C

CP511ZPRODUCT DESIGN & DEVELOPMENT C

LC0202EFFECTIVE INTERPERSONAL COMMUNICATION C+

CP5010FLUID MECHANICS B D+

GPA for tis sem is 1.947

summulative GPA is 1.5

hahas i know it is a bad GPA, but i will work hard for my attachment, to pull my grades up.

cos attachment is hands base, not theory base. and is 4 credit unit!!!

so JIAYOU TO ME!

and last of all, Tks God for improve results tis sem, and Tks God for ranking me 36 our of 200 plus students for my KDU PFD drawing test.

and I LOVE MY DAD ALOT!!! :D

tata,,, got to prepare to go out for attachment!!! :D

muacks~

I AM MORE THAN WHAT YOU CAN SEE!
hahas love this qoute!
anyway, today attachment quite tiring.
climbed 2 column of abt 3 storey high, using MONKEY LADDER!!!
tiring max and very very scary. it seems short, but once climbed, there is only gg UP not DOWN!

hahas my grp, grp 3, is asked to combine with grp 4.
and in these two grps, only me and another friend of mine are girls.
so which means we are the only 2 girls in these 2 grps.
hahas so sweet of the guys in these 2 grps.
they really take care of us. esp when climbing up and down the 2 columns.
they keep asking, "ur confirm can climb up? / if ur tired, stop at the nxt level. / ur dun need scared, got us guys here!"
and many more... so sweet right?
ahahs tks God i have great guy friends ard me!
gentleman kinds! :D

anyway, got back my ranking for my KDU PFD. out of 200 plus students, i rank 36.
hahas is within top 20% !! HURRAY!! :D
at least something i'm proud of!! :D
super happy!!

anyway tml i'm getting back my results for my papers tat i've taken druing feb.
which are my end-sem papers!!
i'm super nervous, but i know i will pass them! cos i can do most of the questions!!! :D

I AM SO GOING TO GET GOOD GRADE THIS TIME!!!

facing some obstacles... SO LETS THIS PERIOD BE A TESTING TIME FOR ME!
believing in God in everything! all breakthrough shall come to be thru Jesus the Son of God!

let this testing time test my patience! and maybe after this testing time, i might be able to forget him!
going thru this testing time, i will enjoy the journey! enjoy the where i will be on the way to where i am going!

Knowing myself that i'm not as perfect! not someone tat is clever or good looking!
BUT GOD DO NOT CREATE JUNK!
He create everyone for a reason!
so one day, everyone will definitely find the place and reason they are born for!
so i'm not following Jesus and God, and along the journey, i will find the purpose and my special someone! :D

Choosing Love!
LOVE = JESUS!!!
Love is unconditional! you can't expect ppl to love u back so for u to love them!
Loving ppl doesn't need anyone's permission or for us to pay!
is free, no one can control or deny ur love for someone!

I have to say, there are many ppl in my life!
may it be ppl in my family relatives friends or ppl i admire or i like!
all of them deserve something frm me.
as they are a part of me!
in my growing up, learning to be mature!

looking back into my life, i really only love 3 ppl till now.
my feelings for them lasted for either 2 or 3-4 years
though they dun have the same feeling for me, but loving someone doesn't their permission! :D
as long as they are leading a happy life and good one, i will still be happy for them!! :D

still contacting 1 of them them, we are now like close friends! closer than ever!
as close friends! tks God tat he is a servant of God! serving God!

In life, i think no matter how ppl treat u, as long as u do things tat pleases ur eyes, just do it.
even if they dun appreciate it! :D

anyway i'm doing ym stupid log book now.... sian max though!!!

today is a saturday! and i still need to go for attachment!
totally shag!!! I'M SO TIRED!!!
literally tired! physically, my spiritually is tired too, but not alot
but to prevent myself frm getting spiritually tired, i'm reading this book, by Joyce Meyer
titled "Enjoying where you are on the way to where you are going"

though i've read the first 2 chapters, but these 2 chapters are strong!
Keep reminding tat Joy is the fruit of the spirit! John 10:10.
the devil steal our joy and replace it with fear or maybe the negative stuff....

anyway i will say more in the nxt post cos i'm physically tired now!

anyway this is how my book looks like

~tata~ :D

love u guys! <3

i tot of something!

try saying "BAH BLAH BAH BLAH BAH BLAH" continuously !!!

hahas u won't be able to get it right!!! :D

anyway, i'm really tired... i can't believe tat i won't be able to attend my own service on sat when we step into suntec!

gosh! and it will definitely feel as if i am not gg service for 1 week plus.

seriously, I AM VERY TIRED!!!

I WANT MORE SLEEP!!!!

today's KDU PFD test was ok. i drew, i rmb. but i can't ensure that i can get 80% for the drawing.

for the rest of the 20% is the MCQ, i tink i got 2 wrong. ah yo...

sian max!!! i studied hard for it, and i know that i did my best for it!!!

anyway i missed him!!!! argh!!! MISS HIM MAX!!!

GUESS WHO?? hahas na, my cousin yang yang!!!

He is in NS! miss his stupid jokes tat didn't fail to bring laughter into my life!!!

stupid joshrena xin not replying my sms or tweet!!! totally MIA!!!!

tat stupid jeremy also.not in singapore, run all the way to australia for attachment!!! WTH!!!!

sorry, i had a little quarrel with my mum. seriously, i hate her attitude la...

sian max!!!! WTF! seriously, at time i'm wondering is she my real mum!

me and her totally different la!!!!

seriously! why is the same thing happening to me???
Dad's company facing some prob, and have direct impact on the family...
now sis and me have to help out more... is a private company, so no choice! like a family business...
family relying on dad and sis' pay...
now ppl spending in the family are me bro and mum...
me and bro still have to study... mum daily hse hold things... groceries...
seriously, at time i just want to work la...

tks God i've a part-time job... still is like i work for my expenses.
if possible, i will try not to get $$ frm my dad...
tks God i recently got my pay, so i dun nid to get $$ frm my dad for abt 1.5 months!

seriously, i realized that i will definitely have some hard time before i have a break-thru...
i can say i'm use to it, but but at times i am really sick of it la...

so tiring... things coming out at a time... and all i can do is cry under my blanket not letting anyone in the family know what i'm doing....
staying strong and independent in front of my family members when things like tat turn up...

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

really praying hard and frm the bottom of my heart tat i can really face this things strong!
and to overcome it. and it will not come again and again...
and i won't feel tis again!!!!
defeating the inner me!!! throwing away the flesh and back to the spirit!!!
JIAYOU!!! :P

SUNDAY, 13 MARCH 2011

went Sentosa with LYL zone.

Terin neo went too!!! LOVE HER MAX!!!

anw, this is team 1, the team i'm in and the team tat won the 1st prize!! :D

me and terin

see how red our faces look like.

like some monkey buttock ...

o ya, i love these 4 pics the most...

love my fringe and my hair!!! :D

argh!!! in these 4 photos, i love my hair best !

and and the natural blush tat my sunburnt give me!!! :D

muahaha

anyway, my back hurts alot alot!!!!

MONDAY, 14 MARCH 2011

had attachment! tks God tat i slept at about 11.15pm on sunday night...

woke up, not tired at all... BUT my sun-burnt on my back is the worst thing EVER!

though my sun-burnt on the back hurts, worst case....

some of my attachment friends, they either lean on my back, put their arms on my shoulder, or slap my back.

HURTS LIKE CRAZY!!!

plus, today spend nearly the whole shift day outside.... but tks God that the weather is windy and not sunny!

tks God it rains today!!! :P

I have to wear the overall....

i look like this in my overall !!!

sorry..... too small.. so u can see frm my facebook!!! :D

love my hand's tan!!!! :D

~end~

yesterday was the 3rd day for attachment!
i have to wear that coverall and the heavy boots for the whole day wherever i go.
is like super heavy la...

anyway yesterday is the same, stayed in the auditorium for nearly the whole day for some lecture and had 2 tutorials in a class busy copying!!!!
anyway, i can say tat i'am super tired... not tat tired that u want to sleep. but the whole body aching tired.

today's the 4th day for attachment, and thank God tat i'm in the afternoon shift!
anw, i woke up at 8.30am! and why do i wake up so early? because my whole body i aching!
can literally can feel the aching and my whole body is like very heavy!
just pray that i won't fall sick like tat... i'm really really tired!!!

but besides conplaining, yesterday night i tried drawing process flow diagram for the whole kerosene distillation unit.
1st and 2nd try --- FAIL!!
3rd time --- pass!
the pass not tat i rmb everything, but i finish drawing once and is proportional!
hahas! my mum and my sis keep laughing at the drawings! tsk...

anyway, i'm so gonna pass my PFD for KDU !!!
i want to score the 80 marks for the drawing and also the 20 marks for the MCQ!!!
want to to get 100 marks!!! HAHAS!!! :D

BYE BYE!!! STAY TUNE!!

2nd day
stayed in the cold auditorium nearly the whole day! and is like so freaking cold!!!
attended the safety talk FOR THE WHOLE DAY! FRM 9PM TO 3.30PM
anyway, i keeping dosing off thru the talk.

anyway, been the 2nd day, i got this bruise on my right wrist...
seriously, i dunoe how i got it!
told my mum and showed her. guess what she said?
she say is a ghost pinch me de.... i was like lol -.-lll
anyway, i know in my heart that God is protecting me frm anything harmful !
even if the devil ask me, what if it is real?
den i will tell the devil, if ghost is real, den God must be testing my faith to Him!

anyway, i had to rmb this PFD drawing, of a kerosene distillation unit.
though is in symbol, but the whole drawing take up a A3 size paper.
so u can imagine tat there will be many things to rmb and draw.
not just tat, i have to rmb each temperature and pressure at diff specific place.
i was like OMG!!! i am having the test nxt thurs
and not just, the drawing takes up 80% of the test, and the rest of the 20% is MCQ
so, the 20% is a must to get, but the drawing is like I MUST RMB EVERYTHING AND SCORE WELL!!

anyway, i will give my best!
for the past 2 mornings, i have been giving God a morning prayer... though is just less than 5 mins, but i believe God will still appreciate the effort. trying to grow tat 5 mins to 10 mins....
after the prayer, i will always feel refreshed and is like God is encouraging for me!
and fill the strength. though my flesh is tired, but i believe that God is giving me the strength and not just giving enough, but to give me more than what i need!!!

AMEN!!!

ok, tml will the the 3rd day and also the last day for morning before changing to the afternoon shift!!! :P

i dunoe...
at times i find it hard! i feel like giving it up.
i know tat it is impossible for it to happen, but i want it to be!

i just want to leave everything behind and go somewhere else that i won't fall easily
but tat's impossible. they are all ard me! is impossible to not fall for it!
i have a feeing that i am falling deeper and deeper and deeper...
i just want to get out!!! :(

Ok, anyway i did abit of research on the items sold on blogshops and the sales abt it.
previously i sold clothes, but cos i realized the sales isn't that good. so i closed it down
will be opening another but this time round i did alot of research and marketting...
will be selling cosmectics. those that are used in the professional rounds.
not just cosmectics, i might be looking into skin care too...
but i have to used the products before taking them in. so yeah.
so the nxt 6 weeks, even though i will be busy due to my attachment, but i will still look out for skin cares!!! :P
so stay tune!!! :P
muacks!!! :P
Love all readers (if there is)
appreciate ur effort to read my lil and unknow blog!! :P

It's SUNDAY! everyone hated for this day to come, as it's the first day of the week and the working adults have to start their work on monday to friday, as a daily routine.

anyway, exams are finally over, but it = attachment !!!

though it sounds interesting to go over to jurong island to have an attachment, but i bet it will be definitely be tiring. frankly speaking, i am so afraid of getting myself breaking down. tiredness is the greatest weakness in me.

Tiredness is my flesh! and the devil is attacking and always attacking the flesh!

i have to stay strong and faithful! though i know that i will still get myself tired, but i believe that getting myself tired is my winter season. after the tiredness is the refreshing season of fruits. which is reading the word, praying and having my quiet time. and most important service!

I had friends that asked me, since u are tired, why not give up in the walk?

telling the truth, this idea did come into my mind sometimes, even now. but God always remind me that w/o Him, I won't be here! to suffer for Him, is like understanding the feelings of Jesus.

Have you thought of how Jesus feels at times? No!

To me, i think many christians are taking advantage of Jesus washing one sins when we asked Him to forgive us.

He always give us chances.

But does anyone thought of Jesus' feeling and God's?

Don't u think that they will feel a heart break?

Looking at their children and fellow disciples falling back into sins again?

I do think of it! at times, i really wanted to know how Jesus and God feels?

Do they cry? Do they get angry?

Just like what the bible says in Ezekial, even the angels are made in the image of a man, but they are of 4 faces. one of them are the feel part which is the humanity.

Since they do have the humanity, so i think God will have too!!!

In the bible, it's written that we are made out of God's image!!!

I know it isn't me writing things that are spiritual or anything, but i did some thinking!

i am really really feeling sorry for myself at times.

I am at an age of 19 this year, and i am still sinning!!! sinning in a way of e right and wrong things.

been in church nearly 4 years. be exact, it is 3 years 5 months!

when i look back, i can't see the change in me, but friends ard me said that i changed.

When they point things out, i realised that it is true.

back then, i don't really talk to strangers or i can say is new friends,

even if i am a new friend, when the members talk to me, i only answered their questions and den full-stop.

but now? All glory to God! i tks God for His grace and the faith that He has in me.

He groomed me to someone that who can speaks confidently infront of ppl.

Though at times i do still have problems in my speaking as my tongue always get tied up! u get what i mean?

and i will get stuck!

But i will still cont' to work harder!

3 years back, i didn't expect myself to be a connect grp leader.

but it was abt 8 months ago, I was called to be one.

At first, i was actually quite blur and unsure abt it, and i didn't do anything to it of tell anyone.

and this cont' till LYL camp. One of the meeting of held my Zhen ying!

i can't rmb the exact word, but is abt fulfilling my calling.

Then something strike me. Then i realise that months back it is God that spoke to me. and telling me to be a connect grp leader.

Then i realised that God didn't call ppl that are ready to be something for Him, But He called those that are not ready and unsure abt it to glorify Him.

He's the one doing the miracles! He wanted me to a connect grp leader, and something i hated most is bearing and holding up responsibility. whenever there is one, u will see me running away frm it.

though i am new in this helping out in the cg, God teaches me things! and with ppl ard.

ex cg members that are not in the same cg with me or same zone with me.

things they pointed out to me, i rmb-ed and i adapt to it.

like what Pastor Kong said, "Nothing is constant, except for changes. wherever you go, Change is there and is constant"

adapting is also a change.

Been quite a long time since i had a long post, but i really feel that i need to say these things out. even if there aren't anyone reading.

But i tink i have the responsibility to keep this blog of mine going.

Starting with lil responsibility...

being a connet grp leader isn't that fun, it is tough but is the serving of ppl!

Cindy leong once said that she is happy that she is able to invest in us. the us are ppl are ppl that are once under her.

though she isn't a leader anymore, but i really look up to her and respect her.

Investing in us. frm these 3 words, i think that investing in ppl is like serving the teaching the new ones.

and to see them grow stronger and faithful in God!

beside cindy leong, i tks God great ppl ard me to teach me, counsel me, be there for me and guide me.

Shimin, casandra, qinyan, elijah, zhongping, yanran, jessica, cindy kwoh, gabriel and many many more

there are many ppls in my life, they might not be the one standing out but they are the ones that did a lil thing for me and impact greatly in my life.

being there for me, teaching me, comforting me, guiding me, listen to me

anyway, these changes i had and undergo for these 3 years, these ppl are in it too.

God does miracles for us and implanting ppl/angels ard us to help us and guide us.

Amen!!!

I tried this application on chrome, and is called: "What happened in my birth year"
and this is what the application showed me and i really think thru what it says!!!
Here it goes:

In 1992, the world was a different place.

There was no Google yet. Or Yahoo. Or Newtab, for that matter.

In 1992, the year of your birth, the top selling movie was Aladdin. People buying the popcorn in the cinema lobby had glazing eyes when looking at the poster.

Remember, that was before there were DVDs. People were indeed watching movies in the cinema, and not downloading them online. Imagine the packed seats, the laughter, the excitement, the novelty.

Do you know who won the Oscars that year? The academy award for the best movie went to Unforgiven. The Oscar for best foreign movie that year went to Indochine. The top actor was Al Pacino for his role as Lieutenant Colonel Frank Slade in Scent of a Woman. The top actress was Emma Thompson for her role as Margaret Schlegel in Howards End. The best director? Clint Eastwood for Unforgiven.

In the year 1992, the time when you arrived on this planet, books were still popularly read on paper, not on digital devices. Trees were felled to get the word out. The number one US bestseller of the time wasDolores Claiborne by Stephen King. Oh, that's many years ago. Have you read that book? Have you heard of it? Look at the cover!

In 1992... George H. W. Bush is televised falling violently ill at a state dinner in Japan, vomiting into the lap of Prime Minister Kiichi Miyazawa and fainting. The second round of Algeria's general elections is cancelled when the first round is favorable to the Islamic Salvation Front. Rebel forces occupy Zaire's national radio station in Kinshasa and broadcast a demand for the government's resignation. Deng Xiaoping accelerates market reforms to establish a socialist market economy in the People's Republic of China. Microsoft releases Windows 3.1. U.S. military forces land in Somalia. The Genoa Expo '92 World's Fair opens in Genoa, Italy. The Kentucky Supreme Court, in Kentucky v. Wasson, holds that laws criminalizing same-sex sodomy are unconstitutional, and accurately predicts that other state and the nation will eventually rule the same way. Yoshihiro Hattori, a 16-year-old Japanese exchange student, mistakes the address of a party and is shot dead after knocking on the wrong door in Baton Rouge, Louisiana. The shooter, Rodney Peairs, is later acquitted, sparking outrage in Japan. Four nuclear missiles are launched into the Pacific Ocean. Two skeletons excavated in Yekaterinburg are identified as Czar Nicholas II of Russia and Tsarina Alexandra. Mafia boss John Gotti is sentenced to life in prison, after being found guilty of conspiracy to commit murder and racketeering. The video game of the day was Mortal Kombat.

That was the world you were born into. Since then, you and others have changed it.

The Nobel prize for Literature that year went to Derek Walcott. The Nobel Peace prize went to Rigoberta Menchú Tum. The Nobel prize for physics went to Georges Charpak from France for his invention and development of particle detectors, in particular the multiwire proportional chamber. The sensation this created was big. But it didn't stop the planets from spinning, on and on, year by year. Years in which you would grow bigger, older, smarter, and, if you were lucky, sometimes wiser. Years in which you also lost some things. Possessions got misplaced. Memories faded. Friends parted ways. The best friends, you tried to hold on. This is what counts in life, isn't it?

The 1990s were indeed a special decade. The Nineties saw the beginnings of the World Wide Web, originating at CERN. Email becomes popular. The Soviet Union dissolved. Living standards in East Asia and Europe generally improved. The Cold War ends. Iraqi forces invade Kuwait. A UN coalition force led by the US was sent to the Persian Gulf, and aerial bombing of Iraq began. The Kosovo War took place. The Ethiopian Civil War ends. Dolly, a sheep, is cloned. The Global Positioning System GPS becomes fully operational. Genetically engineered crops are developed for commercial use. Intel develops the Pentium processor. The Java programming language is created. Microsoft released Windows 95. In Los Angeles, riots occur after the police brutality case involving Rodney King. Great Britain hands sovereignty of Hong Kong to China. East Timor breaks away from Indonesian control. US president Bill Clinton was involved in the Lewinsky scandal. Dogme 95 becomes an important artistic movement in European film. Teen soap Beverly Hills 90210 has its long run. Baywatch becomes the most watched show in history. On MTV, reality television makes its beginning. Nelson Mandela is elected president of South Africa. Germany was reunified. The prediction of computer bug Y2K spreads fear.

Do you know what was on the cover of Life that year?

There's a kid outside, shouting, playing. It doesn't care about time. It doesn't know about time. It shouts and it plays and thinks time is forever. You were once that kid.

When you were 9, the movie The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring was playing. When you were 8, there was The Little Vampire. When you were 7, there was a Disney movie out called The Emperor's New Groove. Does this ring a bell?

6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1... it's 1992. There's TV noise coming from the second floor. Someone turned up the volume way too high. The sun is burning from above. These were different times. The show playing on TV isGoof Troop. The sun goes down. Someone switches channels. There'sCalifornia Dreams on now. That's the world you were born in.

Progress, year after year. Do you wonder where the world is heading towards? The technology available today would have blown your mind in 1992. Do you know what was invented in the year you were born? The Plasma Colour Display.

I remember you back in 1992

When they were putting us down

Trying to tramp us into the ground

You exploded like a flame in the night

With a righteous indignation

Told us "everything gonna be alright"

...

That's from the song Change by Black 47.

It's 2011.

The world is a different place.

What path have you taken?